My Heart

Something happened today because of which I could not resist myself writing this one.

Forbid me for writing some other things rather than my travelling. Today I am going to tell you what I really think, what my heart says, what my mind speaks. This post may help my enemies in case there are to have emotional weapons against me, and my well wishers to understand and help me.

As I am afraid to open my complete heart in front of all, Ill write only few details…

Let us start from friends only, if I can have few exceptions, rest all my friends are like, they use me when they need, rest of the time, they won’t remember me. Well this is how it is and I do not blame anyone for this. I myself might have done many times. But at least I don’t say words like “time nahi hai” or “I have other priorities” or any other false excuses. I have seen many of my friends finding out time for a lot of other things, but for me, they easily make excuses. What I think is a weakness in me which helps so called friends to behave with me like this. Let us not go into the details of weakness.

Coming to relatives, if I look beyond close ones, they are also the same, they will remember me when they need me, rest times they might forget. Still few closed ones always remember me, and I am happy with that. I also take care of them, as soon as I got to know they need me. One more thing to add many of my relatives think I am angry young man, but they don’t call me Amitabh Bacchan, I don’t know why?

Strangers, since I meet strangers for a very short interval of time, they seem to be nice to me.

Now let me tell you how I treat people. First I treat them as regular casual friend, and if they come close to me, I treat them precious, ready to do anything and everything for them even if they consider me trash Next stage comes when they start considering me worse than trash; I keep myself calm and give them everything I can. Now the worst scenario comes if my infinite limit gets over and they still treat me the same. I throw them out of my life completely. But yes they have made their footprints on my heart, so there will be a special place for them in my heart. I can just put them out of my life but not from my heart.